November, 23, 2005 archives

met a girl at the movies
she was so beautiful
she was the one for me
so i asked her if i could call her at home
she said “no thanks just give me my popcorn”
so i followed her into the theater
and found a seat that was right behind her
smelled her hair, smelled her sweater
and then i touched myself

feeling bad about myself again
feeling bad oh yeah
feeling bad about myself again today

at the school, at the rock show
at the rollercade, everywhere i go
people are smiling
it’s always been the same
they’re wearin’ groovy clothes
check me out i’m lame
paid for a membership down at the local gym
tired of getting dumped, let’s get really pumped
thought i’d look like henry rollins
but i still look like phil collins

feeling bad about myself again
girls ignore me in the chat room
feeling bad about myself again today

we were in paris
we were up in the eiffel tower
we were getting married and all our friends were there
we made love underneath the parisian moon
but that was just a dream
just a dream
just a crazy dream

feeling bad about myself again
feeling bad oh yeah
feeling bad about myself again today
feeling bad about myself again
first to be the last one picked first
i’m feeling bad today

• the broken record by twink
• plagiarhythm nation, vol. 2.0 by the evolution control committee

you can get the albums at amazon, but i got them both through negativmailorderland.

is it a bad sign when it is not even noon on the first day of a four-day weekend, and you’re already out of things to do?

here’s how i got my turkey today, or at least here’s the old version of the turkey chili recipe i vaguely follow. all amounts are approximate, and all ingredients are optional. if there’s an ingredient you don’t like, don't use it. if there's one you like a lot, use more of it.

1 pkg. (about one pound) extra-lean ground turkey
1 medium onion, chopped
1 green pepper, chopped
1 red pepper, chopped
1 clove garlic, minced
2 jalapeño peppers, seeded and finely chopped
15oz. whole kernel corn
15oz. tomato sauce
15oz. water
2 tbsp. chili powder
½ tsp. ground red (cayenne) pepper
½ tsp. paprika
2 tsp. ground cumin
salt & freshly ground black pepper
15oz. kidney beans

combine the turkey, onion, and peppers in a medium-sized saucepan (about 3-4 qts.) over medium-high heat. after a couple of minutes, add the garlic and jalepeño peppers.

cook until the onions are translucent, the turkey has cooked, and the peppers have softened up. turn down the heat a bit, and pour in the corn, tomato sauce, and water.

if you can get fresh corn, that's even better than the canned stuff. just cut the kernels off an ear or two (and scrape out the 'milk' from the cob!).

add the spices. this where you really get to play around. those amounts are very approximate. i’ve never measured. the carroll shelby chili mix is also a fine way to eliminate the guesswork, but that’s not nearly as much fun.

simmer for about fifteen minutes, stirring often. add the beans, and simmer for another five to ten minutes.

remove from heat. eat. enjoy.